I’m back in Denver. I’m only here for the weekend. I needed a break from my anxiety. It was intense, but I’m not feeling much anxiety right now. Just a little bit from unfamiliar sounds. I got my iPhone 7+, and brought it, but not my Galaxy 7 Edge. I forgot about the lack of an audio port, and didn’t bring my new wireless Bose QuietComfort 35 headset. It’s become too treasured to risk losing on a trip. I wish I thought to bring the earbuds that came with the phone. I’ve never bothered with Apple earbuds, since the original version didn’t fit in my ear. I’m not an audiophile, but even I know to toss any earphones that come with a device. My feelings about wireless earbuds remain as before; they’re ridiculous.
We’re not yet where we need to be in tech prowess to create wireless earbuds that don’t suck. We’re getting there, but trust me, Samsung and Apple are using their customers as beta testers. I’m not saying that’s wrong, it’s logical. But some people don’t realize this before buying first generation gadgets. If you buy something new that was recently made available, and it uses batteries or electricity, you’re going to be disappointed. It will have issues. Underpowered until they figure out how to eliminate overheating issues. Shitty battery life. A design that’s quickly declared fugly, and soon after, replaced with something sleeker. Missing options that show up in a near-future release. It’s cool if you’re not the type of person who loses it when you pay several hundred dollars, then find out it wasn’t anywhere near a final revision.
I’m able to think a lot easier now. I’ve accepted the election results, of course. Not with a smile, but I’ll get over myself. Every time I recall how shocked I was, and how excruciating it was to adjust to something I wasn’t expecting, I just remind myself that Hillary Clinton is back at work. I don’t have the gall necessary to continue whining, knowing that fact. I’m proud of her. That was some serious testicular fortitude. Epic, even. I’m adjusting my attitude, because I can’t afford it. I am, and always have been, against the concept of hating people who support a different candidate than I. Obviously, they have a different perspective. The smartest thing to do in that situation, is listen.
First of all, hating someone is a waste of energy. I’ve never met an adult who has energy to spare for such things. They’re either rejecting hate, or something else in their life is suffering for their indulgence. I say rejecting, because I understand that sometimes we hate for a minute, then abandon it, because we understand how this works. The only difference between the average supporter of candidate A and the same for candidate B, is perspective. How can you hate someone for having a different perspective than you? It’s ridic. Now, I’m not talking about the people who do nasty things to other people. There are people like that supporting all candidates. I cringe when I see tweets about people being hateful, loudly, in support of a political candidate.
But it’s always a few, not everyone who supports the candidate. In every other aspect of life (I’m aware of), this rings true as well. But for some reason, we don’t get as worked up about it, (unless it’s religion). The word extreme exists for a reason. Every political stance you can think of has a supporter. I know a lot of POC and LGBTQ people who are freaking out in advance of what they suspect will happen once Trump takes office. I’ve heard some grim predictions, but I’m not as certain they’ll all become a reality. Some probably will. It’ll suck, and I’ll fight in every legal way I can think of, to support a reality where everyone in our species is afforded the same liberties. I read a lot of sci-fi. A lot. I’m realizing it’s warped my perspective. It’s fascinating.
The authors I enjoy the most in the genre have a common vision for the future of humanity. They see us overcoming poverty, hunger, and intolerance of other human beings for reasons beyond their control. That’s never the focus of the story, but it’s an aspect I adore. My favorite authors in the genre are Neal Stephenson, Peter F. Hamilton, John Scalzi, James S. A. Corey, and that’s all I can think of, because I’m stoned. But those four are pretty amazing. Well, five. James S. A. Corey is a pen name used by two authors. I’m usually not keen on collaboration where art is concerned, but The Expanse series is as fun as Firefly. I like the TV show, too. I hope it stays on air for years. Unless Netflix purchases the production, and keeps it going even longer. That would be ideal.
I’ve wandered back to my second point. Freaking out in advance. This is illogical. If we turn out to have something to freak out about, we should freak out then, (and rise together soon after). Now is the time to enjoy the status quo, not worry about a future that may never come. Worrying is right up there with hating. Avoid both like they’re poisonous, because they are. Freaking out takes an incredible amount of energy. Doing so for a few months will land you in a hospital, or morgue. It will do absolutely nothing but make you sick. It’s too close to fear. Fear is one of those things you need to come to terms with as soon as possible. If you’re an adult, and you don’t know how to cope with fear, you should work on it. It’s important. Focus on your strength. You have more than you can sense.
If you’re a parent, anytime you freak out, so do your kids. They usually find creative ways to express it, too. It’s just not worth the cost when the future is unknown. Worry and fear are siblings. Feeding them your attention when you’re not in immediate danger is expensive, and you likely can’t afford it. If you visualize yourself in the role of a victim of (society, circumstances, etc.), that’s what you’ll become. Don’t waste your visualization ability on visuals that portray your life sucking in any way. Do the opposite. Humans are dreamers. Dream what you want and need, not what you fear and dread. I believe there’s a threshold to negative thoughts, and exceeding it has dire consequences. Controlling what you think is easier than breathing. If you’re easily distracted, practice until you master it. Lots of meditation guru’s break down the process of controlling your thoughts while they teach meditation techniques. If you catch yourself worrying, find a distraction, and do that instead.
Apparently, I saved up my words from the last five days, and poured them all into this post. Um… For your convenience, not because I’m still stoned, (hahaha). I’m still not feeling anxious. I won’t for a few days after I get home, at the least. I forgot to record how long it lasted, for obvious reasons. Things are absolutely funnier when I’m stoned. I love that. I’d tell you some of the silly things that amused me, but I can’t remember. I normally have a good memory, so this would probably be upsetting if I wasn’t stoned. Okay, I’ll stop. You’re welcome.