George and I will miss your company.

The checks and balances system in America is as broken as the electoral system. Everyone games the system. The bipartisanship is a dead horse that nobody will drag out of the room. The Democrats are just as corrupt as the Republicans. Both parties are so disconnected from the people they purport to serve, it’s shameful. They abandoned us, the people, long ago. It’s all about power and money. Bernie Sanders and the few other honorable members of Congress are surrounded by bloodthirsty monsters in a foul swamp of greed.

These are not representatives of the American people. Some are an embarrassment to the human species, to be honest. We did this to ourselves. We weren’t diligent in protecting our freedoms and values. We were too busy living our lives, raising our children, building our careers, fighting for equality, and educating our minds, etc. Those of us who are living the American Dream are the ones who let America down. The Dream isn’t free. It requires effort to keep it alive. We failed in that effort, and now The Dream is being raped. I hate to use that word, but it fits perfectly.

We who have jobs, pay taxes and live in our communities are responsible for keeping our way of life possible. It doesn’t just happen by itself. We have to pay attention to who’s running for office, and how those who succeed perform once they’re elected. We need to hold them accountable for the money they accept from lobbyists in exchange for votes. If they fail to represent us, vote them the fuck out of office.

From now on, we need to take our citizenship seriously. We need to set aside the little bit of time it takes to stay informed and demand real representation. There are Americans who depend on us to do the right thing. Everyone under eighteen, for starters. We don’t even need to look beyond that group. The next time you catch yourself jumping on the anti-millennial bandwagon, remember how hard you fucked them by being a lazy citizen, first. Not so funny anymore, eh? They said negative things about us too, we just didn’t give a fuck, because that was our thing. Don’t be your parents. Look at them as the individuals they are, and you’ll see what I see. We’ll be fine if we get off our edgy asses and vote responsibly.

I’ve lost some friends because I refuse to hate Trump supporters. That was convenient, albeit painful. My love is entirely conditional. I’ll curb a hater in a heartbeat. Writing off a large number of people as dumb, (or more offensive words), is intellectually lazy. That should be enough said, but consider the topic.

Calling someone dumb is the same as announcing you’re too lazy to bother recognizing their strengths. It means you give up because you don’t want to think anymore while accusing others of being dumb. Don’t do that. Just say you don’t understand their point of view. Accept that some people are always going to see the world differently than you. You don’t get to abuse them for it. Fix your aim on the ones doing the lying. That’s your enemy. Not the ones who fall for their bullshit.

I’ve already seen a few “news stories” about Trump supporters who are now regretting their decision. It’s overt propaganda, but there’s some truth behind it, too. There are a lot of people anticipating Trump being a disaster. Mostly because he has a disastrous history of not paying taxes, but accepting tons of welfare. He’s quite literally a burden on society. He’s only ever taken from America. He’s never given. So yeah, fuck him. I gave more to America before I turned 18 than that piece of shit has in his entire life, and I’m far from alone on that.

2016 sucks ass. I hope Trump steps up to this challenge and does right by us. I have no faith in him, but I’m a glass-half-full type. It’s possible he’s tired of being a piece of shit and is planning on bending over, grabbing his ears, and pulling his head out of his ass, to serve his country honorably for the first time in his life. That would shut me up about it. We’ll see, (because we all know he’s going to be sworn in, treason be damned, sheeple). I’m still having nightmares about what Trump paid his ex 14 million dollars to pretend never happened. So it’s not much hope. Sigh.

TCB. Taking care of business.

Today has been peaceful so far.  Probably because I’ve been wearing ear plugs for most of it.  I finished up getting tests done, got diagnosed with viral meningitis, and was given a different med that I have to take for a longer time.  I feel much better today.  I figure I’m past the part where I feel like shit 24/7.  I’m disappointed that it wasn’t what I secretly suspected.  The sudden headache that landed me in the ER occurred precisely halfway through an eyeroll, amplified by some head movement.  I was expressing intense disapproval over some bullshit a co-worker was trying to pass off as a joke.

In that moment of overwhelming pain, I felt certain I’d brought it on myself, through the very act my Mom claimed would cause my eyes to roll back and get stuck.  I have to admit, I’m a little bummed that I won’t be forever known as The Woman Who Definitively Proved That Moms Are Indeed Always Right.  Or, The Girl With Invisible Pupils.  Or something really funny that references pop culture while simultaneously capturing my shame.  If you think of a funny one, let me know.  So anyway, I’m feeling better, and I’m working on eliminating dramatic eye rolls from my body language, (for real this time).

I’m sad that Bernie Sanders is no longer a candidate.  I saw a bit of video where he announced his endorsement of Hillary Clinton.  The part that stood out to me was when Hillary embraced him afterward.  Based solely on what I observed, her hug appeared very warm and sincere.  That’s probably why it stood out to me.  I didn’t know anything about their relationship prior to that footage.  I don’t watch the news because I’m impressionable, but aware enough to know that the views they express are biased by their Saudi Arabian owners.  Since that’s not enough information to draw any conclusions on agenda, I remove it from consideration.

I’ve lived in Saudi Arabia.  It’s the same as everywhere else I’ve been, but the wrapping is different.  Some people are awesome, and some suck.  My host family was large, and I grew to love them.  I laughed a lot when I lived there.  I didn’t know anything about their culture prior to living there, but my overall impression was a feeling of safety.  It would have shocked me, had I known what a lot of Americans assume.  Instead, it was a time in my life when I felt protected.  But they have their problems, just like any other nation.  There’s no such thing as a perfect country, or form of government.  The only form of government that is not corrupt is anarchy, and nobody wants that.  Well, nobody who understands what it means, and isn’t actively suicidal.

Lately, I’ve been paying attention to Trump supporters, and Clinton supporters.  I need to listen to them for a while so I can understand where they’re coming from, and why.  It looks like they’ll be my options, so I need to figure out which one will represent my America.  Right now, I’m leaning toward Hillary Clinton.  I’ve avoided listening to Trump supporters up until now, because Sanders was my choice.  I’ve been thinking about both candidates without the bullshit they’re currently buried in by opposition.  If I take away the racism consideration, it evens up the playing field a surprising amount.  Experience and connections are Clintons edge.  Trump needs to work on his social and communication skills in order to gain support from many who oppose him now because of this.

I don’t mean he needs to start being politically correct.  He can’t go there now.  I mean he needs to say what he means every time he opens his mouth.  No more of this stumbling for metaphors and circling around coherence.  No more having to wait for him to clarify, and having it look exactly like backpedalling.  Or flip-flopping.  (English is such a goofy language.)  The best thing Clinton can do from now until we vote is step back a bit.  She needs to reign in her husband and put him on a leash. (Yes, that was petty, but also funny.)  He’s not helping her campaign in any way, though.  The less we see of him, the better.  Those of us who will be voting for her while gnashing our teeth are not interested in his shenanigans.

I figure Chelsea will be recovered enough from giving birth to join Hillary on the last leg of her campaign.  We’ll listen to Chelsea because we don’t resent her for getting away with murder.  Take from that what you will.  So I’ll continue to listen to Samantha Bee, and the people I follow on Twitter.  I follow supporters of Trump, Clinton, and those who have pretty much sworn not to vote for either one.  I guess I should be relieved that Ted Cruz is out.  He gave me nightmares.  That video of his daughter refusing to hug him… Creepy AF.  (Huge shudder).

What I’ve learned from Trump supporters is this:  Lots of people have written them off as being “dumb”.  However, they’re basing it on the same criteria used in American schools.  They think anyone who doesn’t learn from books and teacher-student instruction is “dumb”.  It’s bullshit.  The truth is that a lot of these people learn from watching video.  It means they got their impression of Trump from reality TV.  It’s easy to scoff at that, and dismiss it.  But when you look closer, it’s clearer.  They see him as someone who values merit.  He’s brash and crude, but he picks the guy who does the best work.  Doing your best work and earning your accolades is commendable.  This is what they see in Trump.  A man who recognizes the person who most merits recognition, above all other considerations.

It took me a long time to understand this.  I’ve been staring at Trump supporters, and wondering WTF, too.  Now I understand why they are able to overlook the arsenal of shit he’s buried in.  They can accept a racist president if he’s the type of guy that values merit.  Now don’t get all snarky on me.  Racist presidents are a fucking tradition in America.  Just because our sitting president is half white, half black, (and all nigger to some assholes), doesn’t mean we’re suddenly going to require our presidents to stop being racists.  One small step at a time, we make progress toward a human race that isn’t set on self destruct.  I know we can get there.  I read about it all the time in my speculative fiction novels.  They are much better at predicting the future of humanity than Nostradamus, and all the other non-scientific nonsense out there.

So the bottom line for me is hope.  I’m sad that we’re not ready for Bernie Sanders.  But I’m not going to spit in his face and give up altogether.  He asked us to vote for Hillary.  The least we can do is consider it.  We wanted him to be perfect, because we have youthful minds.  We’re idealists, full of hope and love.  Of course we practically put him on a pedestal.  But we also laughed when Conan and Samantha Bee poked at us over it.  We know how we are.  Hah.  So to my fellow Bernie supporters I say, game on.  Do your research, and vote.  Vote for the lesser of evils.  Vote for the one who you believe will not fuck things up so much that we can’t recover, (remember, we survived Bush twice).  Stop being butthurt to the point of not voting at all.

If you don’t vote because you’re disgusted that Bernie Sanders is no longer a candidate, than you are the biggest loser.  You have chosen to silence yourself because you didn’t get your way.  You don’t understand your own leader, if you think Bernie would rather you stop participating altogether, than vote for Clinton.  Your right to vote is almost sacred.  People fought with everything they had to get some of us this right.  Don’t shit on the ones who sacrificed everything for our present.  They’re the greatest people in the history of our nation.  They’re the ones who truly understand We, the People.

Denver bound

I’m off to Denver today. Yay!! I’m excited to go this time.  My anxiety is a little high, but not more than I can handle.  I didn’t sleep well again.  More Trump nightmares.  Sigh.  It’s just so hard to reconcile the fact that it’s 2016, and so many are still ignorant and full of hatred.  I’m trying not to think about the fact that the 2 leading candidates are racists.  I’m not feeling terribly proud to be an American.  For the next few days, I’m going to have fun, and try to forget about the ugliness.  At least I’ll get some sleep.  Hopefully nightmare free.