”Elaine, she’s a psychic. She knows how her kid’s going to be.”

16th St Mall, Denver, CO

I’m in Denver and am thrilled I haven’t lost anything so far.  It’s probably something to do with wearing my phone and wallet in a small pouch around my neck. I look like a doof, I’m sure. But it’s worth it.  I’m hanging out with M’s cousins while he attends a meeting. Then we’re off to discover pinball machines.  It’s around 70 F and sunny.  Much better than the snow at home.

I have no idea what we had for lunch, but it was delicious.  It was Indian food, but I forgot to ask further.  I learned as a teen never to decline food from people who invite me into their home.  I offended an African (university student) who was braiding my hair and didn’t realize my error until her son told me she cooked explicitly for my appointment.  I apologized and ate with them, (but I also cried at the same time, and had post-crying hiccups afterward.)

One perk of being a doof:  I learn the shit out of valuable lessons.  Sigh.  It’s barely a perk.  I’m super tired due to being too excited to sleep last night.  My mind is doing aerobics, but my body is whining.  I watched the beginning of Star Wars:  The Last Jedi, when I realized sleep wasn’t happening.  Love it so far.  Spoiler Alert:  I (internally) slammed my foot against the ladder along with the doomed rebel to get that damn remote to fall.  I bet every Jedi (dreamer) who saw it did, too.  The catch and press scene was brilliant.

Star Wars TLJ

Also, I helped General Leia Organa slap Poe for his ruthless priorities.  The timing might be a bit off for the humorous quips, though.  Or, more likely, I just wasn’t ready to laugh after all that loss.  And I have this bizarre need to touch Supreme Leader Snoke’s skin.  He’s scarier than Emperor Palpatine.  He also appears fragile except when furious.  Weird how that increases menace.

I asked M if he thought weed would help me tolerate intensely exciting movies, but he said it would make it much more overwhelming for me.  So I’ll be sticking with patiently waiting for the version I can control with a remote.  (And tossing it up and catching it while pressing pause, like some rebel in a galaxy far, far away.)  ✌🏽

 

“Spending the night is optional!”

Black Girl Magic

I slept.  (Jumping up and down)  I feel like I could run a marathon 10K today.  My face hurts from smiling like I just met Stevie Nicks (and didn’t make a fool of myself in the process.)  It’s sunny and brisk outside, but I only ran my usual 5-mile route this morning.  It felt great, and I was even awake for most of it.  Yay.  🙃

M. will be home this weekend.  He’s in Denver working on a project to assist homeless people.  We’re investing in Denver with a plan to move there in a few years.  It’s the first time we’ve pooled our savings toward a future goal, and I’m excited.  I forgot I own a building there because it’s an investment that requires none of my time.  My former co-workers live and work there, in addition to a few rented commercial spaces.  There’s also an occupied unit where I was meant to live when I’m ready to leave South Dakota.

I wasn’t ready when planned, and remaining here has been wise on all counts in the meantime.  It has growth potential, but it doesn’t cost me anything to take my time and plan wisely.  It’s a source of income that will substantially increase when we’re ready.  Despite the (bigoted) suggestions I move elsewhere (so I can be around my kind,) South Dakota has always been my home.  I’ve lived all over the world, but my roots have remained.  It’ll be a significant transition when I’m ready.

Sioux Falls, SD

I know I occasionally joke about how much it sucks to live here, but it’s only half-hearted.  Sioux Falls is a lovely city.  The people are kind and approachable.  I’m protective of them because you know I’m Ms. Literal, so when I served in the Army, I was serving my community.  With the present political climate, I feel a compelling duty to stay here and remain ready to help the most vulnerable among us.  Adopting a new community will be a new concept, but I’ll eventually face it with M. at my side.

Thanks to those who have lent me some strength during the horrible, awful period of insomnia.  You made a tremendous difference, and I want you to know your efforts got me through.  Taking a chance and offering support on the internet is courageous and I love you for reaching out to me, (not that I didn’t already.)  😂  (I know I’m supposed to withhold this information, but I break rules often, so here we are.)  We can pause and look at the ground together.  🙃

I’m so happy to be myself again.  I don’t like being cranky and spaced out.  When I awoke this morning, Amelia Bedelia was laying on my back.  I hope this is a new habit for her as it felt wonderful.  She was my weighted blanket after I kicked my usual one off the bed.  I’m sleeping hot again, which of course I assume means I’m (thinking I’m) heading into menopause earlyish.  I know it’ll probably be a while before it kicks in, but I’ve been blaming shit on it for a while now.  Heh.

I get hot in my sleep reasonably consistently lately.  I’m going to start cracking the window before I sleep to counteract it because it’s no fun.  Yay for spring.  There’s barely any snow left.  I don’t know why I’m pleased by this as thunderstorms level me.  Ah well, it’s not storming now.  There’s a new version of Bose QC35’s now, but I’m still researching Sony and Senheisser’s offerings.  Beoplay also has an offering in the same price range.  I think I’ll spend some bitcoin when I decide because it’s high now.  🤔  I’m off to the studio for drummer training.

p.s. It’s Guillermo Haro’s 105th birthday! (He was the first person from Mexico to be elected to the Royal Astronomical Society.)

“We just tease someone until they develop an eating disorder.”

old tires

Welp.  It’s been a long week, and it’s only Wednesday.  I stressed myself out and ended up seeking out my big sister for advice.  She’s close in age with Stevie Nicks. (Yes, it suddenly makes her cooler.)  She helped me calm down, mostly.

I freak out about things with which I have no control like I’m being paid.  I’m having a hard time refraining from beating myself up.  It seems like a logical reaction when I’m the cause.

I’m functioning on auto-pilot too much.  I burned my hand while soldering earlier by reaching for the iron without looking up.  I left my eyes in my other world again.  Along with my brain.  Sigh.  At least it’s not severe.

soldering

I’m assembling DIY kits for the kids in the afterschool program in Denver.  They teach basic electronics and soldering.  Today’s youth need to know how to recycle and repair electronics.

I’m still working on my guide to going off the grid (for free.)  Today’s trash is tomorrows treasure.  Scavenging, repairing, refurbishing, etc. are the skills I’m interested in of late.  Water purification and desalination are up there, too.

M. and I are headed to Colorado to plant more trees.  I’m not bringing a laptop this time.  I need to unplug for a while.  M. has a meeting in Denver, but otherwise, it’ll just be a mini vacation.  I’ll soon be off to play in the dirt and let go of what isn’t working, or needs freed.  Peace.

“Next thing you know you’re saying they should have their own schools!”

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I feel like I’ve gotten a second wind.  (It probably just means I’ve recovered homeostasis.)  Before I forget, any geniuses who want me to link their blog, I’m happy to oblige.  You don’t have to be autistic.  I’d love to add links to our allies;  people who support actually autistic people as a self-advocating group endeavoring to improve our access to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

I enjoy celebrating and encouraging others who are driven to be their best self.  If that’s you, dear genius, just let me know in the comments section below.  🙃  I know I go on and on about how amazing humans are as a species, but in my line of work (AI dev), this is reiterated on a daily basis.

One of the blogs I follow is Editing AdvantageEA just graduated with a bachelors degree in English.  (You know Ms. Grammatically Challenged is wicked impressed.)  I hope you all take a moment to congratulate her.  I’m definitely going to hire her the next time I need to write an investment prospectus.

I’m heading to Denver tomorrow to meet with a new client.  I’m excited as I’ll be designing a custom musical instrument for a musician with a recent spinal chord injury.  I discussed my latest project of creating an electronic drum kit for a drummer with cerebral palsy (my bro) to a former client.  They were intrigued and mentioned me to the new client.  It led to a long FaceTime chat and a new project.  Yay.

My boss said go for it, as long as I don’t quit.  I have mixed feelings about that conversation, but it’ll keep for now.  M. is supportive of my plan to pay back Stevie Nicks, (Amy Lee, Beyoncè, Sheryl Crow, Eminem, etc.) for all they’ve given me through their words and music by paying it forward.  (He agrees it’s a better idea than trying to figure out how to send them more shit that will likely confuse them at best, from someone they were previously unaware existed.)  😂

Back to Hogwarts to learn more wisdom.  Peace.