Probably so the woman has one last chance to change her mind.

I haven’t been as attentive to this blog as I’d like of late.  I feel like I’m trying to catch up in life.  I write down my thoughts as I think them, (sorry grammar appreciators).  I’m changing on a daily basis and feel a sense of control by writing my perceptions during the process.  When I don’t write, my ability to express myself quickly degrades.  It’s a bit scary how quickly.

I recognize it has a lot to do with my computer obsession.  I’ve been in computer ecstasy this week.  After extensive research, I purchased a Surface Pro 4 on Black Friday (online).  I wanted a lightweight 2-in-1 with decent power and a good screen.  I’m so pleased with this computer.  The keyboard is a dream to type on.  I usually use mechanical keyboards (another obsession), but am impressed by what Microsoft has created.

I got the black keyboard in the bundle, but have since ordered the navy blue version.  The backlighting is perfect.  The springy response and short depression distance of the full sized keys are delightful.  The pen attaches to the tablet magnetically, which is fine at home.  When I travel, I’ll store it elsewhere.  I’ve dropped it four times so far, but on the carpet.  This was before I attached the keyboard.  There was no damage, and I haven’t dropped it since it’s been attached.

The texture of the keyboard is like suede.  It feels nice, looks good, and doesn’t attract fingerprints.  The keys are plastic with a clear font, arrow keys, and adjustable backlight level via Fn key.  The device powers on instantly with the push of a button, just like an iPad.  However, it runs Windows 10 Pro.  The pen costs less than half what Apple charges for their pencil.  Losing it won’t end in tears.  The trackpad is as good as the one on my Apple MBPr.  That alone is awesome.

Best of all, drawing with the pen is as good as a Wacom.  I did drool a bit when I saw the new Wacom pen computers that will be released next month.  They’re powerful, and Wacom is to digital art what Roland is to electronic drums.  After playing with this Surface Pro 4, I have to admit Microsoft has achieved excellence.  It makes me so happy.

I remember when I purchased my first Xbox.  It was so well constructed it was astonishing.  It was as if they channeled Sony.  They put the product first, profit second.  It paid off in a big way.  Then they released the 360.  It was cheap crap, and most of us went through a few of them before Xbox One debuted.  It baffled me.  Why go from one extreme to the other?  My original Xbox outlasted four 360’s.  I gave it to neighbor kids to get them gaming.

My only complaint about the Surface Pro 4, is that it’s too hard to upgrade.  The possibility of breaking it is too high for me to risk, so I maxed the specs.  Then I got an Acer Spin 5 13″ 2-in-1 and immediately took it apart.  I know it probably sounds excessive to buy 2 laptops at once, but the way I work makes this logical.  I prefer using multiple computers simultaneously.  I’m impatient.  Also, computers are surprisingly cheap these days.

The Acer is a fun machine.  It was also marked down significantly for Black Friday.  I found it has an m.2 and a 2.5″ SSD, both at 128GB in raid 0.  The single ram slot accepts up to 16GB and isn’t soldered to the motherboard.  Huzzah!  Bumped both to 500GB Samsung Evo’s.  This weekend, I’ll be installing a Linux distro partition, if I find the time.  I’m co-hosting a hashtag game tomorrow morning, followed by meeting with the guy I hired to recycle or sell my excess stuff.  That’s a lot of interaction.  It’ll be fun.


Well… I became aware of a contest

I’m so tired.  I didn’t sleep well last night.  Then I got up too early.  At least my chores are done.  I’m covered in mosquito bites from running on the bike trails.  They follow the river for the most part, so that probably doesn’t help.  Tomorrow is August, which means the carpet cleaner is here, cleaning the units of recently vacated apartments.  It’s so loud and annoying.  I could drown it out with headphones or earplugs, but for now I’m just trying to ignore it.  I’m going to play WoW soon, and I usually wear headphones for that.

I thoroughly broke my gaming desktop the other day, (software issues).  I got so frustrated trying to troubleshoot the problem that I came extremely close to buying Windows 10 Pro, and starting over.  It was in my Amazon cart, but the “will take a few extra days to process” note during checkout made me pause.  I thought about ending my boycott of, and even went there and browsed parts for a new build for a bit.  But then I remembered how much I hate getting used, broken, returned shit that they habitually resell as new.  I loved Newegg for 7 years before the boycott.  Fuckers.  Twice, I got a video card that was clearly opened, installed, broken, removed, reboxed, returned, and then sold to me as new for full retail price.  On top of that, when I complained, and tried to get RMA’s for them, (both were broken due to physical damage), they tried to feed me some bullshit about their no returns policy.

So I went to my state Attorney General, and the BBB, and reported them.  I was very thorough, and that same day, they got back to me, willing to refund me for the broken shit they sold me.  They still acted like they were put out, and bending their rules to accommodate me, so I’ve boycotted them ever since.  It wasn’t easy.  I bought all my computer components there prior to these incidents.  Fortunately, there’s Amazon, where I do 90% of my shopping, both personal and for work.  I’m quite loyal to the brands and stores that work out well for me.  Amazon sets the standard for what I expect from e-tailers in general.  If an e-tailer can’t get it to me in a few days with minimal or no shipping fees, I’m not buying it there.  There have been instances where what I wanted wasn’t sold by Amazon or it’s 3rd party sellers, but it’s rare.

It’s been a decade or so since I started shopping there, and they’ve never fucked me over.  Not once.  Not as a buyer or a sometimes-seller.  That’s incredible.  I suspected I might have a virus on my computer for a bit, but that wasn’t the problem.  I ended up shutting it off and walking away until the next day, at which time I fixed it within the first five minutes of powering it up.  It was an easy fix, and now it’s running smoothly again.  Whew!

The sense of panic and despair I feel when one of my computers breaks is unreasonable.  I have 2 desktops and 3 laptops.  And several Raspberry Pi’s.  I’m completely obsessed with computers, and have been since I was 8.  I’m excited by technology advances to the degree of giddiness.  There was only one time in my adult life when I broke my computer, and didn’t have a backup.  Apparently, that traumatized me, because having 5 computers now is actually an improvement.  I used to have 8, but sold 1 and gave 2 away to family members.  At least I’m able to give them away easily.  I sincerely want everyone on this planet to have a decent computer.  Probably because I assume everyone likes them as much as I do hahaha.

I want to upgrade my PC’s every time a new CPU or video card is released.  I refrain most of the time.  I’m still rocking a Broadwell.  DDR4 RAM and Samsung 850 Pro NVMe M.2 SSD drives are appealing, though.  And the new Nvidia cards.  I thought about the AMD RX480 for a bit.  Then I remembered how AMD frustrates the crap out of me with their apparent allergy to writing good drivers.  Catalyst can suck it, too.  I like the Nvidia software that optimizes my settings for specific video games with 1 click.  Overclocking is easy, too.  I break my computers a lot.  I’d like to think it’s because I use them so much, but it’s because I’m curious.  I disassemble every ready-built computer I buy within minutes of ownership.  I also annihilate crapware by reinstalling the OS, assuming I was able to assemble it again successfully.

These days, I’m pretty good with the hardware thanks to trial and error.  When I think back to some of the mistakes I’ve made, I chuckle.  Like the time I installed my first motherboard without offset screws, and shorted it out.  I didn’t know what those screws were for, and this was before there were a million youtube videos to walk you through every step.  I know.  RTFM.  I do read the manual sometimes, now.  But breaking shit is a good way to learn how to fix shit.  Only my Apple computers and my Alienware laptop are under warranty.  The warranty was part of the package deal at Dell, or I wouldn’t have it.  I’ve used it before when my AMD video card died, though.  I love Dell.  I love that it’s privately owned now.  Before they bought Alienware, I was big on IBM, before it became Lenovo.  Now, I wouldn’t use a Lenovo computer if it was free.  I call them Malware Machines, because with every Lenovo machine you buy, you get free malware.  It can be uninstalled, but it shouldn’t be there in the first place.  I boycott them on principle.

I broke my second Mac mini.  I installed an SSD, and broke the connector to the motherboard.  I didn’t have a soldering iron at that time, and was so frustrated that I deliberately demolished it, starting with throwing it off my balcony.  My frustration tolerance is usually pretty high, but not that time.  I used a hammer and wire cutters after removing the CPU, RAM, and hard drive.  It was scrap when I finished with it, and I felt a little better.  I know I could have popped my new SSD into an external case and used that to boot from, but the whole appeal of the Mac mini is that it’s so tiny and clean lined.  Apple’s trend of making their machines less and less upgradeable is a huge turnoff to me.  Naturally, they’d prefer for us to buy a new machine rather than upgrade.  I develop for them, or I’d kick them to the curb for selling such good looking, overpriced, underpowered machines.  Sigh.

Do women know about shrinkage?

Content Warning:  This post contains graphic descriptions of obscene artwork.

I’ve slept well the past few nights.  I normally consider 4-6 hours a good night, but I’ve been enjoying 6-7 hours.  Aside from feeling pretty disoriented when I look at the clock, it’s good.  I wonder if we did something in therapy that eliminated one of my sleep demons.  If so, yay.  If not, who cares, this is awesome.  I’ve also felt tired, which is odd considering I’m on a running break.  I’ve substituted running with gaming.  I really enjoy doing the daily quests in Draenor with all 3 of my level 100 toons.  I have a hunter, a paladin, and a monk, so they’re quite different to play.  The hardest part is remembering that I’m not on my tank on 2 of my toons, and going in like an over-militarized police force.  It’s gotten me killed plenty of times.

I’m starting to feel a nagging urge to create some art again.  Last time, I think I did a song.  Maybe this time I’ll try doing a graphic in Photoshop.  I’ve had quite a few pass through my mind that amused me.  But some could have gotten me in trouble again.  Apparently obscenity in art is in poor taste, even when it’s the point of the piece.  The last time I got in trouble, I created a graphic and uploaded it to my DA account.  I got feedback, and then reworked it with a more realistic appearance.  The first one may still be there for all I know.  The second one got taken down, and I got a digital scolding.  I have no idea why metaphorical mirrors are offensive.  What I created was an image of a flat world map superimposed over buttocks.  The Middle East was positioned directly in the crack of said buttocks.  Draped in an American flag, was an erect penis, positioned to penetrate the Middle East.

In my opinion, my graphic accurately reflected the political status quo not only at the time that I created it, but ever since, as well.  I was told it was obscene.  I wholeheartedly agree.  It is obscene.  What I don’t understand, is why my metaphorical graphic is obscene, but literally doing the same thing in life is acceptable.  And don’t get me wrong.  I wasn’t making any sort of reference to homosexuality.  I was doing what I do best.  I was being literal.  I don’t care where you stand on the political scene, the indigenous people affected by the displacement and violence are getting fucked.  We even created a scandal when literally handing them US cash to pay for our (crimes?), in what seems from the outside, to be an act of desperation.  It could be a brilliant move, for all I know.  I don’t have enough information to be certain.  My point is this; even our government is acknowledging that these people are being fucked, and is giving them money to compensate for it.

In America, that’s how an institution apologizes.  So that’s why it seems desperate to me.  But my time in the service taught me that the information given to civilians via TV news networks and stations is decided by the Pentagon.  I don’t object.  I was astonished when I found out, though.  Everything on the news in USA is created with the assumption that our enemies are watching, and is shown accordingly.  There are other agendas in there, too.  I’m looking at you, R.  “I sure hope you don’t install Trump as POTUS”, she said, cynically.    I just quoted myself and find it amusing.

I’m in a weird mood.  I blame the not running.  Usually I think all my goofiest, wildest thoughts while running, and then I don’t share them.  My weird is leaking!  I finally went over to the office to pick up my packages.  I had more there than I was expecting, and spent a while unboxing, and flattening the boxes for recycling.  I got some new glasses cleaning solutions and microfiber cloths.  I have a really hard time keeping my glasses clean.  The problem is that I can’t see clearly enough without my glasses to be able to inspect them after I attempt to clean them.  I’ve tried in all sorts of lighting, but they’ll look clean, and then when I put them on, things look a bit hazy.  I think it’s oil from my fingerprints on the lens, and I’m merely smearing it around.

So I ordered a few different types of lens cleaning solution, because the Windex I already had didn’t help at all.  It made it a lot worse, in fact.  I cleaned my glasses with dishwashing soap and hot water, then used one of the solutions.  It didn’t help at all with the microfiber cloth.  But when I used a Kimwipe or 10, they finally got clean and as clear as I can get them.  Next time I get glasses, I’m not getting any of those coatings on my lenses.  It makes them so hard to clean.  I want fingerprint-proof glass on my glasses and all my device screens, please.  We should be using micro projected light waves instead of solid surfaces for both, anyway.  There shouldn’t be anything solid inside the frames of my glasses.  I wonder how much longer we have to wait.

I found out a lot of information about my new place in Denver today.  I thought it was going to be finished completely by the end of August.  I was mistaken.  I didn’t account for waiting on permits and inspections, or some such.  I wasn’t even given new estimates.  They don’t think I need to worry about a late December move-in date.  They’re sure it’ll be completed by then.  But they always followed that with a reminder that they have no control over how long certain aspects will take.  So I was almost grateful.  I did order a new sit/stand desk.  It’s bamboo with black legs, and has a 4 position memory on the lift and lower panel, so I can save my favorite 4 desk heights.  We’ll see if I can come up with 4 favorites.  I’m skeptical.  Two will probably suffice.

I’m a little excited about it, because it’s my first non-Ikea desk in what feels like a long time.  I do love Ikea, but I’ve come to an age where owning fewer things of more lasting quality is what appeals.  I’ve evolved as far as what objects I treasure.  I mean, I’m sure everyone does over time…  I can feel that I’m starting to grow away from urban vinyl collecting.  I haven’t purchased a new one in several months.  I still do and fly by’s on occassion.  But the urge to buy anything is gone.  I think it might have to do with the fact that I got what to me is the ultimate figure.

I think my interest is moving more toward action figures instead.  I definitely want 2 Leia’s.  One as the Princess, and one as the General.  The one in the white robe, not the gold bikini.  That character has a lot of meaning for me.  It was the first time I realized women can go to space, and be political leaders, and lead rebellions, etc.  It blew my mind in a good way.  It expanded my horizons at a young age.  I don’t recall ever feeling like anything I wanted to do was out of my reach.  So, yeah.  I dig Leia a lot.  Science fiction is a big part of my life, and has been since I was 12, and my brother gave me a copy of Dune.  I couldn’t identify a Kardashian in a lineup, but I can tell you the plots of over 10 different stories about Mars, and which details are scientifically based, which were purely imagined at first, and are now reality based, and other such fascinating things.

I could talk about science fiction novels almost as much as I could talk about computers.  Talking about the things I love is one of my favorite things to do in the world.  But it’s rarely appropriate.  When I do get a chance, I cherish every moment of it, though.  Then when I feel the urge to do it again, but don’t have the opportunity, I can play back a previous time in my head.  I haven’t met very many people who love computers as much as I do.  No, wait.  That’s not actually accurate.  I don’t know very many people who enjoy listening to me talk about how much I love computers.  Bullseye.  And on that morose (by Blythe Milby) note, I’m off to read.