Category: Military

But I don’t wanna be a pirate!

I’ve devised a new bribe to get myself to exercise.  If I run on my treadmill, I can watch music videos and interviews.  I just need to go a bit slower to prevent vertigo.  I don’t have a forgiving space to land in if I go flying off the back.  I have a credenza full […]

It feels like aliens poking at my body.

CW:  suicide, PTSD symptoms (Skip it if you’re not positive you’re up for it. 💜)                 Today has been rough.  I had the math isn’t real nightmare again last night.  It fucks me up every time.  It usually means my sleeping mind has penetrated my defense system, and […]

Still with the neck hole?

Content Warning:  Descriptions of severe depression, the aftermath of sexual assault.     I’m feeling much better.  Turns out, it wasn’t a round of severe depression, as evidenced by my improved condition a few days later.  I believe the suddenness (that word is spelled so redundantly) in which my happy-go-lucky stasis was shattered led me […]

How long have I been asleep? What year is it?

Today was good overall.  I’m saddened by the news of more violence against the police.  Another veteran utilizing the skills obtained in the military.  His motivations seem obvious.  Retaliation.  I see more there.  I see another young veteran who got out of the service, and had to face racism in America for the first time […]

You had to have the BIG salad!

Content Warning:  This post contains materials that may be offensive to Christians, and Mel Gibson.  It contains speech about violence that may trigger.  It contains descriptions of Autism as experienced by me that may trigger.  Proceed with appropriate caution, or stop now and opt for self care.                 […]

Veteran Tears

I finally got some sleep.  I took a double dosage of Benadryl.  I watched a show on a new channel called Viceland.  It was Weediquette, and the story was about veterans using cannabis to treat PTSD.  I probably should have changed the channel, as this is a touchy topic for me.  Fortunately, it was done […]

Disability Day of Mourning

Today is Disability Day of Mourning.  There were lots of posts on Twitter.  There was a list of disabled people who were murdered by family members by date, name, and cause of death.  I skimmed the list to see if the little girl who lived across the street was on it.  She wasn’t.  Her name […]