Category: Fucking Meltdowns

Quick! Everybody under the desk!

CW: Aftermath of SA, related triggers.                 Fuck.  I haven’t pinpointed for certain what I did wrong to cause this round of hell.  Deep down, I suspect I know, but the reason pisses me off.  I had a birthday last month, and I ate like someone who doesn’t […]

They’re gonna name their baby Seven.

I’m so overwhelmed.  Yeah, I saw this coming, too.  Sleep deprivation is expensive.  Typically, I feel like I’m a few seconds behind the world.  I’m used to The Pause.  Presently, my mind is racing.  I have too many things I want to process at the same time.  I’m demanding my brain keep up, but it’s […]

Too bad you can’t do that for a living.

Today reminded me how much I despise low comprehension days.  My neurodiverse friends probably know what I mean.  When my mind seemingly loses its ability to understand written or verbal communication for no apparent reason.  It feels like everyone but me got a memo informing them today was the day nobody makes sense.  My frustration […]

Is your father also in a Red Chinese prison?

Words escape me, so I’ve borrowed some from Nine Inch Nails (Every Day is Exactly the Same).  I’ll be listening to With Teeth on repeat while running on the treadmill until exhaustion because I fucking love irony. I believe I can see the future ‘Cause I repeat the same routine I think I used to […]

Can’t stand ya… can’t stand ya…

Insomnia is kicking my ass.  It’s also fascinating me, which is annoying.  I’ve gotten new information recently that broke my resolve against hating Drumpf and his owner.  I know I’m dabbling in self-destruction, and that hating them will do nothing to deter their vile intentions.  It’s incredibly inefficient, too.  I’ll be channeling this otherwise wasted […]