I used up most of my energy before noon, today. Whoops. I’m allowing too much news to get through. I’m battling against an overwhelming desire to isolate, as a result. I remember when I used to surrender to this urge. It seems like a long time ago, but it’s been just over a year since I crawled out from beneath that rock. Life is quite challenging now, and it’s building me up.
Anxiety has been dangling me by my ankle over a pit of doom. I’m hanging there, trusting in The Force while my body trembles. I need a Star Wars marathon. I’m going to do a chronological order viewing over the course of a week. We’re heading to Denver soon for a short tree planting session. M is going to play with drones. I miss the smell of freshly turned earth.
I watched Comedians in Cars Getting Coffee, yesterday. I started from the beginning and watched through Sarah Jessica Parker. Jim Carrey made me laugh so hard I cried. I didn’t know he was a painter. You get to see lots of his works inside his art studio. I love the show because it’s not only hilarious, it’s fascinating. I love Netflix. Heh.
I think I may need to include a rest day in my workout schedule. My muscles feel itchy, which is distracting. I haven’t quit running yet. When I step onto the trail, my body starts running automatically. I roll with it until I get to the first street crossing. Then I walk for a bit until my mind wanders again, and I start jogging. It’s a stim, not my workout, so I don’t mind. It calms me.
I create mashups of songs by Stevie Nicks and ABBA in my head while I run, lately. Edge of Seventeen mashed with Does Your Mother Know is ridic dope. I may even try to mix it myself just because I need it in my life. It’s in my top two songs right now, including Nice For What by Drake. The creative part of my brain works so well when I’m in constant, rhythmic motion.
I regret pushing to muscle failure in my workout this morning. I forgot I’m in my 40’s or something. I don’t feel older; I need more time to recover, and stretching is no longer optional. I remember when my body could do whatever I demanded without flinching. I would miss it, but I’m too busy being pleased with what I can still do. Recovery time and lots of stretching are acceptable. I practice meditation while I stretch like it’s worth extra credit; (it probably is.) I’m off to make popcorn for my marathon. 😆 💜