I put Canadian quarters in the washing machine.

I have only 1 more appointment this week.  It’s been rough having my schedule interrupted so much.  The left side of my face is numb after today’s appointment.  The endodontist entertained me while he worked by telling corny jokes, and teasing his assistant.  They got on the topic of movies, and he asked if I saw Toy Story.  I told him no, it scared me.  I’m a total wuss when it comes to movies.  When I saw the scary looking, broken, anthropomorphized toys, I bailed.  He explained that if I stick it out beyond that, it gets much better, so I’m going to give it another try.  I have all 3 versions, because I was confident I’d enjoy them.  So I’m glad it wasn’t a waste of money, after all.

I haven’t been sleeping well.  I’ve been doing my routine for winding down before bed, but it’s not working right now.  I don’t like being this tired.  I keep getting startled by the fact that a blink turned out to be longer than normal, but I have no idea how much longer.  It’s unsettling to realize I was unaware for a brief time, by accident.  It makes me feel vulnerable.  Hopefully, I’ll sleep hard tonight, and catch up.  All this running around for appointments is stressing me out.  I have many more in the near future, too.  I keep it vague until it’s within a few days.  For some reason, it’s less stressful that way.  I’m only worrying about my next appointment, not the ones that follow.

When I had my doctor’s appointment yesterday, it was my first time meeting my Primary Care doctor in person.  So far, we’ve only emailed.  They change a lot at the VA.  I can’t recall how many I’ve had since I got out of the Army.  It was also my first time seeing the new Women’s Clinic at the VA.  It was an emotional experience, and I spent my entire appointment fighting off tears.  It’s hard to believe, but my local VA is finally acknowledging the fact that women serve, too.  I’ve had some bad experiences at the VA hospital.  In both cases, they were due to my being mistreated by staff.

It’s a rare situation.  Out of all the caregivers and staff I’ve interacted with in the years since leaving the Army, it’s happened twice.  Unfortunately, that was enough for me to avoid seeking medical care.  The amount of preparation needed for me to leave my home, drive to the VA, and park is significant.  I create scripts, and try to visualize what to expect.  It’s difficult, because people are unpredictable.  There are usually surprises, and they trigger my anxiety.  From the time I lock my door, until I unlock it upon returning, my anxiety is high.  It surges higher when I need to talk, or meet someone, especially if shaking hands is part of the deal.  I haven’t figured out how to control my anxiety in these types of situations yet.  But I have eliminated a lot of ideas, so there’s that.

I’m super excited about Microsoft’s new Surface line.  I want one of everything, of course.  I’ve been researching a touchscreen/stylus solution, and the iPad Pro was looking like my best option, until today.  Now I’ll have to do some comparisons.  

This is extremely appealing.  I prefer a stylus.  I hate getting fingerprints all over my screen, and constantly having to clean it.  I’d like to get back into creating digital art, and this looks ideal for that, as well as being a decently spec’d system for other tasks.  I’m heavily invested in the Apple ecology, but would love to break up with them.  I have an iPhone 7+ on order, but I’m thinking about cancelling it.  I’m sure the phone would be fine for me, however, I’m still grieving the loss of the Samsung Galaxy Note 7.  That phone was going to change my life.  Sigh.  I’ll do some research.  The Pixel looks nice.

I still have my Samsung Galaxy Edge+, and love it.  I use one smartphone for storing scripts, prompts, and communicating when I’m unable to speak.  The other I use like a regular cell phone.  I don’t know why I don’t like using one phone for everything.  I’m the same way with computers.  I don’t work on my gaming computer.  I don’t play on my work computer.  I know how to partition drives, build a hackintosh, and run Windows on a Mac, so there’s really no good reason, aside from preference.  The release date for the spherical accessory is a month later than the computer, which is a bit troubling.  Is it going to be another beta being sold as a final product?  So forget pre-ordering.  I’ll see what the early adopters have to say.