Today has been good. I’m catching everything the Depression Monster slings at me, and slaying it. At this time next week, I’ll be in Denver. I’m excited to go this time. It’s odd, because I have a lot scheduled for a weekend trip. Normally, I would feel anxious about having so much to do, but not this time. I’m going on a Cannabis Tour that includes a visit to a grow warehouse, and lunch at a restaurant that specializes in curing the munchies. Rice Krispie treats are an option for dessert, which is genius. I haven’t gotten the munchies before, but I’ve also never turned down a Rice Krispie treat. It’s a 4 hour tour, so there’s other stuff too. There will be strangers, so it’ll be a good test to see if cannabis helps an Autistic person socialize more easily.
I’m going to base my results on whether or not I interact with anyone else on the tour, as well as how well I’m able to be among strangers for 4 hours. Right now, it seems about 3 hours and 45 minutes too long. Not terribly scientific, but it’ll at least determine if I should bother designing a more scientific test in the future. If I remain with the group for the entire tour, I’ll call it a success. If I remain for over 2 hours, it’ll merit a more scientific study in the future. I know that right now, cannabis free, I would last about 20 minutes, and then get an Uber back to my hotel. I would do this because it would shorten the length of time it will take for me to recover afterward. If I succeed, it’ll take time to recover. This is just how life with Autism is. Social interactions with strangers are exhausting.
When I recover, I isolate as much as possible. Then I hyperfocus on an activity until my cat or body object. Rinse and repeat for however long it takes to feel recovered. I don’t have data on how long it takes to recover because I refuse to measure the negatives. I didn’t sleep last night. I lay in bed and sang quietly while under my weighted blanket for a while. I started to fall asleep, but Amelia Bedelia was batting her ball with a bell in it up and down the hallway at top speed. It’s so cute how she really gets into it. Her little butt wiggling just before she takes off is hilarious. After hearing her do this a few times, I got up to play with her. I’m powerless over her adorability. Here she is on her “throne”.
It’s a pile of all my beginner quilts. They all have mistakes I made as I was learning. I’m still learning, and still a beginner, but I’ve managed to overcome some of my past errors. I got some new material through MassDrop for my next quilt. I haven’t researched paper piecing yet. I’ve been practicing my crocheting a bit. I still suck at it. It’s easier for me than knitting, though. I’ve given up on knitting for now. I don’t have enough hands, or something.