Paper or Plastic?

I’m overtired.  I tried to sleep, but about 10 minutes after I got snuggled into bed, I got a cramp in my foot. My toes were bending in ways they shouldn’t and it hurt.  So I sat up, and started massaging my foot. Then my other foot started cramping.  It’s like they were ganging up on me.  I know what the problems is. I have hypokalemia.  I should be taking a Potassium supplement, but for some reason they only come in horse pill size.  I can’t swallow them as is, and breaking them with the pill cutter isn’t very effective as they tend to crumble.  Plus after they’re halved, the edges are sharp and stab my throat on the way down.

So I stopped taking them.  Now they’re extremely expired.  I was told that the kind I get at the health store are not the same.  So I didn’t bother purchasing any.  It’s a once in a while issue.  Once I started having the cramps, I realized the chest pains I had earlier were probably related.  I can’t tell the difference between heartburn and chest pain, so I usually take some Tum’s and ignore it.  I read online that if the pain persists for more than 20 minutes, it’s not a heart attack.  But today when I had the chest pains, they were painful, but not so badly that I cried.  In fact, first I walked around as if I could out walk them.  Then I got distracted and forgot about them.

I figure if they were forgettable, they weren’t a big deal.  Now that I am pretty sure it’s low potassium, I feel a little bit badly that I didn’t pay them any heed.  I kind of recall being told that low potassium can lead to a heart attack.  So, next time, I’ll try to pay attention.  I know I didn’t have a heart attack.  I’ve never heard of anyone getting distracted while having a heart attack, and forgetting they were having it. Although, if it could be done, I’d probably be the one who did it.  I have a high pain threshold and am easily distracted when in my home office.  Okay, playroom.  I have a playroom.  Shut up.

I went to the grocery store tonight.  I got the things I intended.  They were waxing the floor but fortunately, it was in the meat part.  The wax smelled the same as what we used in the Army.  I’m proud of myself for getting my groceries.  This is an ongoing challenge, but I always struggle with it.  Every single time.  I put it off until I am out of food.  This time, I put it off until I missed 2 meals.  This was a mistake.  For about 10 minutes, I thought I was going to faint in the store.  I suspect I’m coming down with something, and the combination of no sleep and no fuel nearly overtook me.

I went into the freezer part and the feeling gradually passed.  I don’t usually go in that aisle, but I’m glad I did because I found rainbow ice cream.  I got some.  I haven’t tried it, but I’m delighted such a thing exists.  It has zero nutritional value.  That means it’s technically not food.  That’s so weird.  The girl who did my checkout didn’t ask me how I was doing.  That was a relief.  It’s such an odd question.  How am I doing?  How am I doing what?  How am I standing here waiting for you to ring up my groceries so I can go home?  Anxiously. Impatiently. Exasperatingly.  Sheesh!

I’m going to have a hard time getting through today.  No, wait.  I don’t want to pin a negative prediction on my day.  Today is going to be awesome.  It’s going to fly by, and before I know it, it’ll be time to go to bed.