My Tribe

I think I’ve finally found my tribe.  I’m trying not to get too excited, as it wouldn’t be the first time I was wrong in this regard.  It would seem that others who are on the autism spectrum accept me as I am.  I can’t begin to express how this feels.  I’ll give a hint.  It’s positive.  I just finished eating my final meal of the day.  I’ve added pistachios, frozen blueberries, and plantain chips to my diet.  I think I’ve reached sufficient dietary variety.  Yay me.

Hopefully, this means no more kidney stones.  If I still get them, I will accept that they are a fact of life for me.  I’m done testing new foods.  I like when I make final life decisions like that.  I think my overall anxiety lowers a smidgen as a result.  I’m on the final chapters of ‘Solarversia’.  It was predictable in a way I appreciate, yet still had lots of things going on that I didn’t see coming.  I’ll finish it tonight, and then I’ll write a formal review on Amazon.  The author is one of my twitter followers, which is how I found out the book existed.  Most of the people who follow me are authors, comedians, people on the autism spectrum, gamers, and nerds.  This pleases me.

I missed Minority Report last night.  I went to bed at 7pm due to a migraine.  It persisted all night and halfway through today.  I hate when that happens.  I used a neti pot and took some Advil, which is usually enough.  But every so often, I have a super migraine that lasts for days and doesn’t diminish in pain regardless of what I do.  Hate when that happens.  It’s gone now, which is awesome.

I suspect part of the reason I got the migraine was due to a combination of lack of sleep, dehydration, eye strain, and physical tension.  Understanding the why helps psychologically.  It tells me I have control.  So when I run tonight, I’m going to carry some water, even though it’s annoying to carry something when running.  I’ll stop to drink at least 4 times, and then drink another full glass of water after I get back.  When I was a kid, I used to get in trouble for drinking my water before I ate, and then being too full to eat much.  My mom wouldn’t let me have anything to drink until I’d eaten most of my meal, which meant I usually didn’t drink with meals at all.

I reversed this process back to natural as an adult.  I retaught myself how to listen to my body when it comes to food in general.  If I’m not hungry, I don’t eat.  I love that nobody tries to force me to ignore my body’s messages anymore.  When I was forced to eat, I forgot what hunger felt like.  That’s just wrong. Being an adult is so awesome.  Except the paying for water bit.  That’s such bullshit.  But otherwise, yay.

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