I’m in the middle of an epic struggle with The Depression Monster. Despite this, I’m still able to hold my head up without too much effort. I have an arsenal of tools to compensate for this interruption arrayed around me. I sprayed some aromatherapy essential oil as soon as I awoke. It smells like citrus with a hint of vanilla in my apartment. I’m surprised how much it’s helping lift my mood.
I purchased a singing bowl, mallet, and silk cushion set. It was an impulse buy, and I figured it couldn’t hurt to try it. I’m stunned by how good it makes me feel. I didn’t even read the instructions. I just started dragging the mallet around the outside (in a circle) while holding it on the pillow because it produces a sound that resonates through my whole body. It’s like tickling my spirit, and it’s always just right.
I also recently got an acupressure mat. I lay on it when I start to feel like I’m wading through molasses. At first, using it was a bit startling, but now I could fall asleep on it. I take off my shirt and place it over the pillow part before laying on it. Then I take a deep breath and summon my ancestors to surround me and fill me with hope. The more I use it, the longer I want to remain on it. I’m up to half an hour each time. I feel energized afterward.
Drumming is another powerful tool when I’m depressed. It has the same effect as working jigsaw puzzles, writing code, and organizing closets. It puts my brain back in order (or distracts me until it occurs naturally.) Only I’m using all of me to do it, to a beat. 🙃 It’s the best midlife skill I’ve picked so far. I’m also learning synthesizers, which is like building a secret friendship with a unicorn who always has candy. Both skills are great to save for when you’re 50ish. You’re welcome. 💜
I’m in a band, but I’m under no pressure to produce anything but my smiling face to practice. The low-key Loki in me thinks it’s funnier if I train as if I’m going to be great before I die. So that’s what I’m doing. If I blow up out of nowhere, you’re in on the joke. 🤭 (Because drummers and synth players who started after their second do-over are notable throughout history, don’t you know.)
Drumming with an acoustic kit is incredibly healing. The act of deliberately making a lot of noise, alone, is significant. I was conditioned to be as quiet as possible. Gross. Fixing it. I’ve compared notes and nearly everyone I’ve asked shares this intense need to be silent. Based on my non-scientific data, you have to be the firstborn son in a religious family with one or more siblings and both parents to feel safe making noise. Heh. Drumming defies.
Side note: I just got an email from Uplift Desk showing a photo of an under desk hammock. I don’t get it. My stress level increased from just looking at the picture (warning Will Robinson.) Is this for at home? Why don’t you lay on your bed? Are you sleeping at work? Am I misunderstanding?
Is this how it starts?
Writing while depressed is messing up my works in progress, but it’s as if the Muse is sending me pity inspiration. Whatever. I can chop it out later and save it in the vault. Someday I’ll use it to write a novel that will make Alaskans and northern Europeans say, damn that’s depressing. Heh. I’m off to practice like I’m Beyoncé. ✌🏽💜